This past April was hard. Many of you know how close my family is, particularly, my sweet, amazing, comical cousins. There are thirteen of us first cousins. Every year we try to get together for “Cousin’s Camp” where we all go camping for a weekend and make all of the memories! A lot of how we all love each other stems from the love shared to us by Granny and Poppa. There are very few memories of my cousins that do not include Granny and Poppa. Even though we would go camping for a weekend just us cousins, Granny and Poppa would
April 15th, 2018, we all received some very sad, terrible news. For me, it was 5:15ish in the morning that Sunday. My mom had called a couple of times and my phone had muted it until her third call. You know, to allow calls for emergencies on the dang iPhone. Her voice came through my end of the phone and spoke those words that you dread to hear. Tears immediately gushed out of my eyes and all I could say was “No.”
You see, I have never lost anyone close to me in my life this far….pretty neat, but also bitter. I did not know what it felt like. I have watched movies and tv shows that are sad. I have had to put my sweet dog down, my best friend, and let me tell you…that HURT. I remember telling John “if this is what it feels like to lose a dog, I do not want to know what it feels like to lose a human.”
IT FLIPPING HURTS.
When we all made it up to Granny’s it was hard. We were sad. Everything just plain sucked. But as we looked around at each other, we soaked in the legacy that Poppa left behind. Because of the love and compassion that Granny and Poppa shared, our incredible family exists. There are just about fifty of us total now with most of the Watkins’ married and having babies, and those babies getting married. It is a true testament to faith and love.
Even though this year it wasn’t possible to have the annual cousins camping trip that we usually have, I am so glad that we were all together during this time of heartache and grief. I love each of my cousins with all of my heart. Poppa would have loved that we were all together and he will always be watching over us.
Love you, Watkins Cousins.